The Pause

The painful decision to pause events and step back from MWM was a reluctant acknowledgment of reality: I was really struggling, and I couldn't go on. I had been operating in a near constant state of overwhelm and anxiety. I was deep in the throes of the most intense and sustained sleep deprivation I've ever experienced (I fully understand why that is a form of torture). I felt like I was behind the 8-ball on all fronts: work, caretaking, my home, and my relationship...and my own well-being wasn't even on the list. I was constantly looking for ways to be more efficient with my time (as if a lack of efficiency was the problem). My physical and mental health were really suffering.

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Bryanna Lumsden
What comes next?

It's a reminder of what I would argue is one of the hardest parts of life: impermanence. Change is the only constant. And, even good change is hard.

Change can bring loss and instability at the same time that it brings excitement and possibility.

And all of us are in the midst of a lot of change right now.

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Bryanna Lumsden
We're still grieving.

It’s now been 4 months since our lives shifted significantly due to Covid19. 4 months since the process of grieving “how life was” began.

And there are new things to grieve each day. Losing a job or facing financial insecurity. Holding out hope for school to return in fall only to find out it won’t be. Canceled trips and gatherings. A favorite local cafe closing. So may disappointments and readjustments.

Do you feel like you’re in the grief process right now?

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Bryanna Lumsden
Can self-care be harmful?

Sometimes, the things I do in the name of "self-care" or "me time" actually make it harder for me to show up how I want to in my life. Which has me wondering:

Can the things we do in the name of self-care actually become harmful?

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Bryanna Lumsden
The Many Faces of Self-Care in Motherhood

I felt depleted. My kids needed me, my husband wanted me and my time, my energy and my body felt like they were being hijacked. I started to feel resentful. My world felt very small for that season and I felt claustrophobic, in a sense. Like I wanted to run away some days...

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Meet Meredith Ryness (Tidy LA)

I’m delighted to introduce the lovely face behind Tidy LA - Meredith Ryness.

I sat down with Meredith and asked her to share about her experience in motherhood as well as just a bit more about who she is, and her “why” behind what she does. I think you’ll see quickly that she is wise, compassionate and gracious soul. I think you’ll also see why I am thrilled that she will be presenting in our wellness workshop, Making Space, on January 30th (shameless plug: if you haven’t signed up, do so here!)

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Bryanna Lumsden
Practicing Presence

As I reflect on this past month, I am reminded of the importance of making choices and taking actions that allow me to align my lifestyle with what I truly value. 

Going into this holiday season, my desire and intention were simple: I just wanted to be present — to soak in the sights, sounds, and flavors of the season, to cherish time with family and friends, to not worry about the little things and to focus on what I truly value. But these past several weeks, I’ve actually felt quite preoccupied most of the time rather than being present for what’s right in front of me.

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A Million Little Moments

The holiday season is upon us. If you’re anything like me, these are the months you eagerly anticipate year-round…the Christmas music and parties, gift-exchanges and good food, cozy fires and Christmas trees. But if we’re not careful, this season can also usher in busier schedules, excessive spending, and heightened stress.

For many of us, no matter how much anticipation we have heading into the holidays, we can often find ourselves disillusioned, over committed, and even resentful due to our idealized and somewhat-unrealistic expectations.

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Bryanna Lumsden
Why Matrescence Matters

If you are pregnant or have had a baby, you already know from experience that your body goes through a dramatic transformation. Even an outsider can see the physical changes taking place over the course of pregnancy.

But what can’t be physically seen is no less dramatic: a hormonal, emotional, and identity shift that is comparable to another time in all of our lives that I doubt any of us would want to repeat: adolescence. 

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